It it just me that cries when swimmming or running?
For me, the pressure is the problem. I started so well nearly a year ago now. Not anymore. Everyone's judging me for not loosing the weight anymore. I feel their eyes looking me up and down noticing that nothing is changing. I feel the pressure from them big time.
Then there's my own pressure. I am getting so desperate to loose the weight that stupid thoughts are coming into my head now. Shall I not eat? Shall I get rid of what I have eaten? Shall I quit work and find more time in the day to exercise?
The running and swimming is the worst though. Thoughts of my failings make me so emotional that I start to well up. I think about how much I am letting down my husband. I just know he can't figure out what's stopping me loose the weight, but he won't talk to me about it. Mostly I think about not getting near to my goal and I feel like such a failure - cue the tears! What a chump
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