Update since the heart scan

OK its been a while since I last poured it all out so today seems like a good day to post. There is no theme to this post though, its just an update for now.

I have a christening to suffer through in 3 hours time so hopefully writing this will make me strong for this afternoon!

My heart scan results came back - they aren't too concerned, but apparently three out of four valves in my heart are a bit leaky i.e. there is some kind of flow back into the other chambers. The GP told me that is wasn't bad enough to worry about, nor bad enough to treat, so I'm trusting that and moving on. Or trying to. The worst thing is knowing that I have this, and I try not to strain too much when yawning, stretching etc. I know it sounds silly but I don't like the sensations of the fluttering , it unnerves me.

I am still having breathlessness and palpitations. Also now I have funny blobs in my vision. I also have broken out bad with my insulin resistance symptoms like the thick darker skin around my neck. I went to the doctor to ask about metformin but she refused to give it to me! Instead she said I scored high for anxiety and has referred to me cognitive behavioral therapy so I am now waiting for that the start. Also told me to get my eyes tested :-/

Things still don't seem right for us though. Had a very tough start to the year loosing Nanny Betty last week, and we buried her yesterday. Also don't seem to have ovulated this month (again!) grr. DH is still out of work and we have had to cancel our holiday plans because were struggling to have any money left because I am paying for everything, new car, mortgage, bills, shopping and it gets me down.

However one bit of good news is the diet. Haven't really changed what I eat, I'm still doing low GI, but I've started using an APP called MyFitnessPro and limiting my calories as well. Doing the low calorie diet with the low GI seems to be working because I've lost 10 pounds since Christmas. At this rate we would be on track for ICSI in the autumn if they will have us, so I am spurred on to push through all the obstacles.